love is my life

love life

magandang topic pag mag get together ang mga barkada..

share mo kung sino ang bago mong insiprasyon, tuksuhan at walang katapusang pakiligan. it was love that always make me lonely and down. im not saying na pagod na ako. just recent natapos na ang kabanata ng 2 kong papa.. hahah oo 2 yun isa bf ko at yun isa papa sa dubai.

BF si jayson aka butch 4 months na puno ng pagdududa walang malinaw na future dahil walang malinaw na simula. ni di ko alam kung pano ko i d describe ang nanyari. masaya ba ako? or walang napala. masaya naman napasaya nya ako in the sense of may nalaman akong nagagawa ko pl para sa punyetang pagmamahal. (bitter) oo bitter ako. kasi umamin sya na marami kami. at hinayaan kong gawin nya sken yun, alam ko nman na di sya faithful saken dahil nagawa nya na akong lokohin, pero pikit mata ko syang tinagap ulet.. tanga nho. in the end, nalaman ko na tanga akong lumaro sa pagibig, sobrang mapagbigay at iniicip lagi ang kaligayan ng parter ko lahit masaktan ako. wala akong reserbang pagmamahal sa sarili ko para umalis sa magulong sitwasyon na ikakapahamak ko pa (naks ang lalim)

si butch ang isang malinaw na halimbawa ng playboy at happy go lucky na tao. gwapo at maboka, mahuhulog ka talaga sa kanya kahit lalake ka..hahaha pero pag nasa paligid ka na nya. malalaman mo na effortless syang partner, walang sweet nothings at maypagka user. lahat yun alam ko pero hinayaan ko lang.. nabulag sa ngiti sabi nga nya eh bf na may dimples.

sa aming paghihiwalay nalaman ko pa na may nabuntis pa daw sya.huh true kaya iyon.. all the while i was being cheated dumped and use..kawawa

now. im letting this feeling go.. di ko pipilitin mawala yun feeling sana parang bula na lng ito na kusang pumutok at maglaho sa hangin..hmm

i wont wish him bad.. may karma naman :D

next recshaun taga dubai na meet by chat. dnaging parang kami kasi we txted chated nad call pa nga.. ok pero sa gitna ng magandang samahan umamin ang hitad na may asawa na sya.. sayang malaking isda..hahaha

oh hayun pero umiwas na ako sa kanya.. pero sige parin minsan ang chat namin.. kung baga eh kawawa naman eh nalulungkot ang tao tapos na loko pa ng company..

at heto nag sabi na kalimutan na dawa kasi mahal na mahal nya daw ang asawa nya.. huh

kala ko ba hiwalay na sila. at biglang mag linyang wag na tayong magusap baket may ganun. eh indi ko naman sya kinakausap eh.. kesyo may mga mababaw pang lintanya ang lolo.

hay kung tapos na tapos na wag ng magpakawala ng masasakit na salita. after all na aliw naman kita..

ok fine end ka rin reschaun.

minsan aniisip ko talaga na amsarap maging lalake. madaming perks, madaming babae na uto-uto, at masarap mag happy go lucky na buhay. kung naginglalake kaya ako. manbabae din ako o manloloko.

parang ..hahhaahaha

ha ewan... cige na mga babae na lang ako :D

"bless thy heart who loves truely, and bless thy men that faithfully see one love only"

Things i do when im on a sick leave =)

watch dvd - lahat ng na miss kong palabas
Transformer
the simpsons movie
quija
die hard 4
harry potter
ratatouille (ay di ko pl npannod ayaw mag play s aking pirated na dvd)..ehehe

at advance na ako
hairspray.. yehey!!

mag laro ngword hunt
na lagi kong tinutulugan
di ko mahanap kasi naipit sa cover ng dvd
interesting sya pag mabagal magbukas ng computer mo

eat galore
bilo-bilo
pancit canton ( di ko alam kung kailan ako last tym naka kain nun)
buko festival
sweets overload
ubusin ang pasalubong (ehehe joke lng)

watch tv till morning..

maiba nman

hay ang labo ng buhay pag ibig ko..

grrrr....

tanga na tlg ako..

kala ko madami na akong alam pero pag sa sarili ko wala akong magandang ginagwa..

puro katangahan..

its always running after the one i love...

y not walk na lang.. ehehe

buhay buhay...

good luck..

How to Install Love

-unknown author-


Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see...I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

10 signs kapag brokenhearted

1.) Hunger stroke- Kahit na gutom hindi parin kumakain.Minsan hindi makaramdam ng gutom..malalaman mo na lang na kailangan mo nang kumain kapag randam mo na nahihilo ka na.

2.) Lamoness- Ito yung tipo na gusto mo na lang kumain, lahat..basta masarap pero pag kumakain ka naman e lumilipad sa kawalan ang isipan at parang wala kang nalalasahan.

3.) Kama derie- Palaging nasa kama. Pero hindi naman natutulog.Mas feel mo na patay ang ilaw..nag iimagine ng mga good memories ninyo then kung ano yung bagay na kapalpakan na iniisip mong sana hindi nalang nanyari then saka ka magiisip na sana totoong may time machine.

4.) Kama tose- Palaging nasa kama rin. Pero para matulog lang. Tulog lang ang sagot sa problema. Magigising ka na lang para kumain ng konti, jumingel, o magbasa ng text message at nagbabaka sakali na may marereceive kang txt messages na " I miss u d q pla kyang mwala ka, tyo na ulet" or "Ikw pla tlaga ang lab q,at hindi sya".

5.) Mall freak- Feel mo na i treat na lang ang sarili. Bibili ka ng kahit na kung anong gusto mong bilhin(kapag may pera). Sa pag uwi saka mo lang mapapansin na mga walang kwentang bagay pala ang pinamili mo.

6.) The Barkad's- Mag aaya ka ng mga kaibigan mo na mag mall kayo o mamasyal, kadalasan yung mga kaibigan na alam mong kilala at alam ang kwento ninyo. Umaasa ka rin sa mga comments na tulad ng mga ganito "Feel ko mahal ka parin nun, Siya ang may mali pare, Ipakikilala kita sa ibang kilala ko na mas maganda pa ron(my favorite), Magkakabalikan rin kayo" at iba pang comments na alam mong makakapag paginhawa sa iyo.

7.) Beermate- Common na ito.Kadalasang unang ginagawa sa unang araw na nabasted/nakipag break ang dyowa/may ibang lalaki ang dyowa/dating lalaki pala ang dyowa.
May 2 uri nito.

1.)Mas gusto ng may kasama para may paglalabasan ng sama ng loob.
2.)Mas prefer na walang kasama. Mas gustong nagiisa. Kapag lasing sila yung kadalasang nagpapakilalang anak ng mayor,congressman o general.

8.) Suicidal- Common na rin. Minsan panakot lang. Kadalasang may titulo na "Mahal na mahal kita" "Hindi ko kayang mawala ka" ang mga suicide notes. Pang jologs na style e yung text message sa mahal mo na magpapakamatay ka then saka mag we wait ng mga ilang oras para sa reply nya na "Wag mong i2loy yan, mgusap tyo, mhal prin kta".

9.) Internitwit- Ito yung mga tipo ng sa internet naglalabas ng sama ng loob. Tambay ng chatrooms at nagbabaka sakaling may makikitang kapalit nya at mawawala yung pagka broken hearted in a instant. Meron ding sumasali ng mga internet forums para lang mambwiset.

10.) Haterz- Ito yung kadalasang kinauuwian ng mga mabababaw. Ito yung tipo na sisisihin ang lahat ng ka gender ng nanakit sa iyo. Nagiging favorite motto ang: "Pare pareho lang yang mga lalaki/babae..mga manloloko".

multiply

Uri ng manliligaw

1. Mr. Gwapings
>> mayaman, gwapo, kilala, at higit
sa lahat may wheels. mataas ang
confidence nya
na hindi sya mababasted, kaya pag
nabasted..maapektuhan ng husto ang
kanyang
EGO. at teyk note, malas mo kung may
sour
grape attitude pa yan. pwede nyang
sabihing "sus
kala mo kung sinong maganda e
pinagtyatyagaan
ko lang naman sya! pwe!"

2. Mr. Quickie
>> ang type ng manliligaw na kada
magkikita kayo e wala nang alam na
sabihin
kundi "kelan mo ba ako sasagutin?" o
kaya "i love
you na, ako ba hindi mo pa lab?" kahit
na isang
linggo pa lang naman syang pumoporma.
kung
baga dinadaan nya sa pangungulit para
mabilis
ang pagsagot mo.

3. Mr. Everything
>> linya nya ang "sagutin mo lang
ako, ibibigay ko sayo lahat, lahat ng
magustuhan
mo. kahit ang pa buwan o kaya mundo." !
@#$ ka
na pag nagpauto ka. dahil pag sinagot
mo na yan,
makakalimutan na nya ang linyang yan.

4. Mr. Stalker
>> eto yung type ng manliligaw na
pag nagkahiwalay kayo e sisimulan ka
sa tanong
na "kumain ka na ba?" pagkasagot mo
susundan
pa nya ulit ng tanong "nsan ka
ngayon?" "sinong
kasama mo?" "anong ginagawa mo?" at
kung anu-
ano pa. basta tungkol sa daily
activities mo
kelangan malaman nya.

5. Mr. Take it or leave it
>> pag binasted mo ang
ganitong type ng manliligaw, asahan mo
bukas
may nililigawan na sya ulit. at heto
pa, hinding
hindi ka na nya papansinin. period.

6. Mr. Salesman
>> dadaanin ka sa matatamis na
salita. parang si Mr. Everything din
kaya lang sya
mas matindi mang-uto. yun bang
tipong.."ang
ganda ganda talaga ng mga mata mo.." o
kaya "ang kinis kinis mo" o kaya "ang
lambot ng
mga kamay mo" at iba pang pang-uuto
mapasagot
ka lang.

7. Mr. Good Dog
>> eto ang nakakatuwang
manliligaw. kase payag syang
magpaalipin. taga
bitbit ng bag mo o kahit ng mga
kaibigan mo. kahit
magmuka syang buntot sa tuwing may
gala kayo
ng mga barkada mo. napapakitang gilas
kung
baga. pero pag sinagot mo na, for sure
gaganti
yan.

8. Mr. Anonymous
>> motto nya ang "action speaks
louder than voice". wala kang kaalam-
alam,
nanliligaw na pala. kaya pala ang bait-
bait sayo. e
akala mo mabait lang talaga.

join na!!

if you go away

if you go, you will take my heart
if you go, you will live me in the dark
if you go, my life will be lonely
and if you go, i will miss you badly

HIDDEN MEANING OF PINOY EXPRESSIONS:

mwah-i love u

wala lang-i miss u or love ktia,d mo
alam?

ok ka lang?-ano ka hilo?!

hay naku!-seryoso ako

ingat ka lagi-i care 4 u

musta na?-sinong love mo?

secret-ikaw->oo ikaw!

anong problem mo?-hurt naman ako..

kayo pa rin ba?-ako naman

chick boy ka pala e!-ang kapal mo!

grabe ha!-selos ako

saan?-sama ako!

s***!-tae! pinaganda lang

inaantok na ko-wala kang kwentang
kausap

may gagawn pa ako e-maghanap ka ng
kausap mo.

bakit naman?-alam mo namang kaw lang

nakakaaliw ka?-ang cute mo

ewan-oo

ganon?-kapal mo!

eh kse-nahihiya ako

talaga lang ha?-naku,bola!

basta-magtanong ka pa

busy ka?-kausapin mo naman ako

pwede ba?-mas cute naman ako sa kanya

may kasabay ka?-nood tayo ng sine&kain
sa labas

miss nahulog-anong number mo?

magwiwithdraw pa ko-pucha naman,kaw
muna!

may barya ka sa 100?-pautang muna,sa
sweldo na ktia babayaran

kawawa ka naman-buti nga...sabi ko
sayo e!

susunod ako-umalis ka na! ang kulit mo
e!

thank u sa gift ha-ang cheap mo naman!

aaay,d na namamansin..-ang gwapo/ganda
mo na ngyon..dati hindi e!

cge,kayo na lang kumain,may gagawin pa
ko e-libre nyo ko,ala na ko pera
pangkain e!

hindi naman- OO(manhid!)

uwi ka na?-wag muna,mamimiss na naman
kta e

may dumi ako sa mukha?-hoy! may dumi
ka sa mukha,punasan mo nga!

pwede tawag ka na lang ulit?-ikaw na
naman!?

ano gusto mong gift?-blow out naman
dyan

hehehehe!(w/ a fake tone)-ayan
tumatawa na ko ah! itigil mo na yang
kakornihan mo

kaw ah,d mo na ko tinetxt-ang kuripot
mo pla! yoko na sau!

Ten Commandments of Human Relations

Ten Commandments of Human Relations

1. Speak to people. There is nothing so nice as a cheerful word of greeting.
2. Smile at people. It takes 72 muscles to frown, only 14 to smile.
3. Call people by name. The sweetest music to anyone’s ears is the sound of her/his own name.
4. Be friendly and helpful. If you want friends — you must be one.
5. Be cordial. Speak and act as if everything you do is a joy to you.
6. Be genuinely interested in people. You can like almost everybody if you try.
7. Be generous with praise and cautious with criticism.
8. Be considerate with the feelings of others. There are usually three sides to a controversy: yours, theirs, and the right side.
9. Be eager to lend a helping hand. Often it is appreciated more than you know.

10. Add to this a good sense of humor, a huge dose of patience and a dash of humility.

Sometimes we tend to be carried away with our own problems that we are forgetting the “OTHERS”…people who sorrounds you and the worst part is that we are not treating some of them rightfully as a person. I hope that we would recognize the beauty in everybody and not just those “favorite ones”.

12 Qualities of a Great Partner

12 Qualities of a Great Partner

1. Happy disposition

-Look for a happy, optimistic person. Find someone who has a sense of humor and can laugh at himself/herself. True happiness springs from a content heart. Beware of the person who is only happy when you are around. You’re going to get tired of being responsible for another person’s happiness. You could end up feeling guilty when the person slips into bouts of depression. True happiness is a part of a person’s character, regardless of the circumstances.

2.Thoughtfulness

-How does your date treat his parents and yours? Chances are you’ll get treated very much the same way. Does he see things that need to be done and offer to help? Or does he put his own needs first? Does he open doors for you and wait to seat you at the table? Manners are important – and they seldom get better after marriage.

3. Not easily angered

-Temper out bursts can be the symptom of internal hostility. This hostility is often repressed during courtship as a person is trying hard to be on his best behavior. Take seriously any outbursts you observe, and check with others who have known this person in different situations to see if they have noticed this trait. The way a woman treats her younger brother may be an indication of how she will treat her husband. Be leery of the person who has not learned to express his anger in words and instead merely harbors angry feelings in his heart. Going silent and withdrawing from a loved one because of anger is unhealthy and damaging to a relationship. Be sure you date a person long enough to observe how easily he or she becomes angry and how these feelings are expressed. Ask yourself, “Is this what I want to live with for a lifetime?”

4. Willing to solve problems

-It’s almost impossible to solve relationship problems by yourself. Marry someone who will be honest enough to admit being wrong, who doesn’t have a habit of blaming others.

5. Purity

-Purity is not just an old fashioned virtue. It’s just safer to date someone who hasn’t played around. Pero don’t hold it against a person for past sexual involvement. You cannot always judge a person’s true purity by virginity alone. Mind purity is equally important. Is your date pure in his thoughts and speech, as well as behaviour? What jokes does he tell? What music does he listen to? What movies does he watch? What books or magazines does she read? Are they pure or suggestive? Mind pollution can lead to disrespect of the opposite sex.

6. Truthful

-Too ofen couples play games when they are becoming acquainted. Playing games in a relationship is a form of dishonesty. Marriage isn’t a game. It’s a serious lifetime commitment. Search your own feelings and share honestly during your courtship. Be you!

7. Accepts Responsibility

-Here are some questions that might detect irresponsibility: Does she see things that need to be done and do them? Does he volunteer to help? Does she get to places on time? Does he make lame excuses to get out of responsibilities? Does she take her talents seriously and work to improve her skills? Does he take care of his personal possessions?… Think about it. Just how responsible is the person you are dating?

8. Good Sense of Self Worth

-Often in a dating relationship, someone with a poor self-esteem may glean a sense of value from you. They become dependent on you to make them feel good. If you don’t want to live a lifetime having to tiptoe around a person’s fragile ego or having to hold yourself back for fear of how your spouse will react, then be careful not to get emotionally involvedwith someone who has a low sense of self-worth.

9. Accepts you just the way you are.

-True Love is unconditional love. The important question to ask is, “Do I love her/his faults?” Only when you can truly love the total person, including all the points and bad habits, can you accept your mate for who he is and not secretly wish you could change him/her.

10. Willing to grow.

- Good marriage grow together. They encourage each other to maximize their knowledge, skills and potential. Make sure the person you date seriously is the kind of person who is open to learning and will make changes when changes need to be made.

11. Affectionate.

- The ability to express love through words and actions is vital for an intimate love relationship. Look for tender words, acts and touches that are given naturally and “appropriately” throughout the day, and not just in private.

12. Relationship with God.

- It’s very important for a marriage partner to have a personal relationship with God. Look for someone who is spiritually sensitive and willing to follow God’s law. A spirit-filled life is one filled with love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness and temperance. A person who exhibits these traits is certainly easier to live with than someone who doesn’t. What about your date/ if you’re interested in a realChristian, make sure his faith is part of his life 24 hours a day.

sundae

pagkatapos ng ilang taon..

nicip ko sya at napangiti ako..

indi dahil s na mis ko sya..

or naalala ko sya..

narinig ko kasi sa commerciala ang commercial ng mcdo..

sundae..

sundae na madalas kong kainin s mcdo nun pag nag m- mcdo kami..

ewan ko b pero natuwa ako...

nalala ko ns SM Manila kami noon ng ng cr ako at pagbalik ko binili nya ako ng sundae..

mahilig ako s ice cream kaya natuwa tlg ako nun..

para akong bata na binigyan ng ice cream at makalumutan na lahat ng bagay sa mundo..

sinabi pa nya na pagmaykina kain tlg lalo na ice cream nakakalimutan na nya na may kasama sya..

as much as possible ayokong nag icipin sya..

ayoko ng malala pa ang relasyon nmin...

masyado akong nasaktan..

masakit..

halos wala na nga akong maalala na masaya nun magkasama pa kami ni ian.

kalako syan na..

that i wont ask for more for someone else..

masakit na pakiramdam ko naabuso ang pagkatao ko lalo na ang puso ko..

ngayon ko lng kasi na realized how much time and effort i spend with him

im really hurt to the point that i wish i never meet him..

that if only i could turn back time..

i wish i never talk to him and be friends with..

until not im living with that bad memories..

not that i told him not to call and not to have any communications with me..

naicip ko lng kanina, bket ako nabubuhay sa masama nyang ala-ala??

do i have to supper and live like this way..

iniicip ko tuloy kanina ano ba yun time na masaya ako with him..

but the only memory i have is the sundae scene..

i think i should think about that every time i will remember ian..


so it wont hurt anymore..


it wont bring back the worst time and all those moments i cry a river..

so it wont hurt anymore..



sundae scene..

How to French Kiss

How to French Kiss

1. Set the scene. Make sure that the mood and
time are right.

2. Relax! Take a deep breath and let go of any
tension in your neck and shoulders.

3. Put your arms around the person you want to
kiss.

4. Start off with a normal kiss, not too firm, not
too aggressive. Closing your eyes is optional.

5. In mid kiss, gently open your mouth and softly
nudge the other persons mouth open using your
tongue.

6. Again, not too aggressively, move your tongue
inside the other persons mouth and playfully touch
their tounge.

7. Read the other persons body language, if they
seem tense or start to pull away, stop what you
are doing.

8. If they open their mouth more or otherwise
indicate they like the kiss, keep on doing what you
have been only with a little more passion.

9. As the kissing gets going saliva build up can
be a problem, don't forget to swallow.

10. Make sure you keep your tongues relaxed
but your lips tight (saliva again), you don't want the
kiss to turn messy.

Tips:
Don't forget to breathe.
Since French Kissing is "wetter" than other kinds
of kissing it is a good idea to start with dry lips,
don't lick them first.
If one of you have braces you can still French
Kiss, you just have to be more careful and not as
forceful when things get passionate.
If both of you wear braces you can still French
Kiss, you just have to be very gentle and avoid
touching teeth.
French Kissing takes practice, but at least it is fun
to practice this one!

bc

bc lang ako ngayon may training kami s Kiangan, Ifugao..

March 20-24

10 hours ang byahe

malamig

mag t-tour ako s buong Kiangan, Ikugao ^_^

if missing you

IF MISSING YOU COULD BLACKEN STARS,
THERE'D BE NO MIDNIGHT SHOW.

IF MISSING YOU COULD MAKE IT RAIN,
THE SEAS WOULD OVERFLOW.

IF MISSING YOU COULD MAKE IT HOT,
THERE'D BE DESERTS ALL AROUND.

IF MISSING YOU COULD SILENCE NOISE,
THE EARTH WOULD HAVE NO SOUND.

AND SO I GO NOW DREAMING OF
WHEN I'M HOLDING AND KISSING YOU.

FOR ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH IT HURTS
WHEN, MY LOVE, I'M MISSING YOU.

from Ljay..

"The Notebook"

"The Notebook"
movie quotes

Duke (in voice-over narration): "I am no one special, just a common man with common thoughts. I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me, and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect, I've succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and for me, that has always been enough."

Duke (reading): "Southern summers are indifferent to the trials of young love. Armed with warnings and doubts, Noah and Allie gave a remarkably convincing portrayal of a boy and a girl traveling down a very long road with no regard for the consequences."

Noah's father (to Allie): "Come on up here, darlin'. We could use a little sump'm around here besides the smell of lumber."

Duke (reading): "It was an improbable romance. He was a country boy. She was from the city. She had the world at her feet, while he didn't have two dimes to rub together."

Noah (to Allie): "If you're a bird, I'm a bird."

Allie's father (delivering the punch line to a joke): "Well, in theory, we're both millionaires, but in reality, we live with a bunch of whores." [laughter]

Allie (to Noah, as they prepare to make love for the first time): "You're gonna have to talk me through this."

Allie's father (to Allie, about Noah): "He's not suitable for you, baby."

Duke (reading): "Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons. But when all is said and done, they have one thing in common: They are shooting stars-a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity. And in a flash, they're gone."

Duke (reading): "Allie was surprised how quickly she fell in love with Lon Hammond. He was handsome, smart, funny, sophisticated, and charming. He also came from old Southern money and was fabulously wealthy."

Duke (reading, about Noah): "He got the notion into his head that if he restored the old house where they had come that night, Allie would find a way to come back to him. Some called it a labor of love. Others called it something else. But in fact, Noah had gone a little mad."

Allie's mother (about Allie's upcoming wedding): "This is gonna be a celebration the likes of which this town's never seen!"

Headline in Charleston newspaper: "OLD SEABROOK HOME FULLY RESTORED"

Allie's fiancé (to Allie): "Should I be worried?"

Dr. Barnwell (to Duke): "Senile dementia is irreversible. It's degenerative. After a certain point, its victims don't come back."

Duke (reading, about Noah): "She had come back into his life like a sudden flame, blazing and streaming into his heart. Noah stayed up all night contemplating the certain agony he knew would be his if he were to lose her twice."

Duke (to his adult children): "Look, guys. That's my sweetheart in there. I'm not leaving her. This is my home now. Your mother is my home."

Allie (happily, after making love with Noah following a seven-year separation): "You gotta be kiddin' me. All this time, that's what I been missin'?"

Allie's mother (about her sweetheart of 25 years ago, now a laborer shoveling gravel): "Sometimes when I'm in the area, I just stop here and I watch him, trying to picture how different my life might have been." [she cries]

Noah (to Allie): "I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day."

Excerpt from a letter from Noah to Allie: "The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever."

Allie's fiancé (to Allie, about Noah): "The way I see it, I got three choices. One, I can shoot him. Two, I can kick the crap out of him. Or three, I leave you. Well, all that's no good. You see, 'cause none of those options get me you."

Duke (to older Allie): "I think our love can do anything we want it to.

She hates girls

She hates girls

after 3 yrs kung maka graduate s college baket napapanaginipan kita??

baket????


makikilala mo lang sya dahil magaling sa math copyahan ng bayan.. yun lng
tahimik na tao tahimik din ang barkada nya.
mahirap minsan kausap dahil parang nangbabara

minsan nag katuksuhan dahil sa pagpupulot ng kalat.
ayon sa aming masungit na prof sa steels (math 8) bawal daw umalis saroom ang walang dalang kalat.. hala ang lahat ay nag-unahan sa balat ng kendi, nilukot na papel makalabas lang sa impyernong room na out of 40 12 ang pumasa.

nagtawanan ang barkada namin dahil napansin namin hawak nya ang dibdib nya habang nagpupulot ng kalat.. ayyyy gurl sya..
doon na nagsimula ang palitan ng biro at asaran
kada makikita namin sya hinahawak namin ang damit namin nangagaya sa ginawa nya at napapangiti naman sya..

simple lang sya laging nk V-neck n puting t-shirt naka cap semi kalbo raymark ang pangalan nya un lng.. pero ang iba matatandaan pa sya pag sinabing "yun magaling sa math"

unti-unti naging close kami.. pinakilala ko sya sa mundo ng ingay sa mundo ng fine-arts sa mga rakista, nagbabanda at skateboarding..

marunong pala syang mag0gitara at di lang marunong magaling... bumabanat malupet ika nga..
parang nag iba na ang mindo nya lagi na syang nakatambay sa fire exit kung saan ako tambay at asahan mong magulo at maingay.. nun una sinasamahan ko lang sya dun hanggang sa doon na ata sya nakatira.. naging bukang bibig sya ng mga klasemates namin.. at nagulat na lang ako "garvage" na ang pangalan nya. sabi nila galing daw sa apelido nya na garvida, sabi naman ng mga barkada nya sa basura daw dahil ang dumi nya.. madumi nga kasi mahaba na ang buhok nya trasher na ang porma wala na ang tahimik na raymark.

naging close kami.. pag dumating ako sya ang hinahanap ko, pag dumating sya ako hinahanap nya.. ganun kami tapos pag nagkita na hiwalay na ng landas kongtign kwento, asaran at kopya ng assignment layas na sya agad..

mag insidenteng di ko malusutan noon napa "oo" ako sa nanliligaw sken na di ko naman gusto eh gusto kong bawiin un sagot ko nun sinabi ko kanya hala binatukan ako sabay sabi "ano ka ba, tao ka??" ang layo pero na get ko kung ibig nyan sabihin..

kami daw sa skul meaning jowa ko sya para pwede na akong makipag hiwlaay sa lalaking iyon (crush ko yun pero hanggang cruch lang) ok tagumpay napaniwala namin ang kumag, bilang pag papangap nag sayaw kami (acquittance party kasi nun) kahit di sya marunog di naman sya makatangi sken kaya ang nagyari kamustahan na lng habang nakakailang tapak na sya sa paa ko..

nang pauwi na sabay syempre kami.. pagbaba ng hagdaan nag holding hand kami.. (syempre konwari lng yun) hanggang sa gate.. nang palabas na kami nag kalas na kami ng kamay pero nag punas lang pala sa ng kamay at sabay sabi "holding hands ulet tayo ang sarap eh" namangha ako sa sinahi nya ganun sa kainosente sa babae, samantalang 3rd college na kami nun.

naging mas close kami kabatuhan ko ng kalat sa klase at taga bili ko ng meryenda. taga bitbit ng bag ko at taga pag tangol ko sa nanaasar ng barkada..

alam ko ayaw nya sa mga babae, napag usapan namin un minsan sa phone.. di naman ako umaasa na maging kami dahil sa sinabi nyang yun.. pero huli na ata ako para sabihing friends lang kami..

isang gabi nag-iimunan sila ng narkada namin.. kaaalis ko lang nun tinanong sya ano ba daw ako sa kanya "may gusto si *** kaibigan ko yun kaya pinoproteksyonan ko lang si joann"
"talaga baka naman ginagawa mo un dahil may gusto ka rin sa kanya?"
"wala, ganun lang talaga kami. alam mo na"
"o baka ginagawa mo yun dahil may gusto ka rin sa kanya?"
"hindi"
"nun nag holdign hands kayo ano naramdaman mo?"
".................anong masama dun?"
"sabi ko na nga ba? ; )"

nan bumalik ako may ibang ngitian sila ewan ko ba kung positive yun pero parang masama eh..

nun mga sumunod na araw wala ng garvage na naghahanap sken, wala na sya sa tambayan laging wala, wala naman sa rooftop ng skol, wala rin sa dulong room para mag jamming.. wala..
wala na sya...

umuwas sya... gusto ko sanang sabihing wala akong gusto sa u, hindi kita gustong maging bf, wag ka sanang magbago.. pero huli na wala na sya.. kahit pag nakikita ko sa malayo di man lang ako nililingon, kahit ipapkilala sya ng mga barkada ko sken para magbiro dedma sya..
sabi nga nila break na daw kami..

umuwas sya sken na sabi nila di daw nya kasi matagap na may gusto sya sken..hahahaha
umuwas dahil sa ganun.. ironic biglang nawala ang friendship namin..

isang araw, nagpapalipad kami ng mga papel na eroplano sa rooftop nagkita kami.. di sya pwedeng di lumapit dahil nasa tabi ko yun kausap nya.. ako nakaupo lang nagpapamasahe ng paa (boss ako eh) isang tingin lang.. at umalis na nan biglang "ok lng bang magpagupit na ako" may konting ngiti..
"hindi ok lng bagay pa sa u"

tinignan ko sya ng umalis sabay palipad ng papel na eroplano..
sinulat ko dun ang pangalan nya..


Raymark,

sana magkita tayo ulet
sana inosente ka pa rin sa babae
at sana magusap tayo katulad ng dati..

joann

Twenty Questions Ni Juan Ekis

Twenty Questions Ni Juan Ekis
-This play won in the palanca awards, dulaang isang yugto category (daw). -


MGA TAUHAN

Jigs ­ Fresh grad. Kabarkada ni Yumi. Magtatrabaho bilang researcher
sa isang financial firm

Yumi ­ Commercial Model. Kabarkada ni Jigs. 2 years ahead kay Jigs.


TAGPO

Gabi. Sa isang kwarto ng isang beach resort. Naglalatag ng kumot si
Jigs sa sahig habang inaayos ni Yumi ang kanyang higaan.


YUMI Sige na, Jigs. Huwag ka nang magpaka-gentle man. Naaawa ako
sa¹yo
e. Tabi na tayo sa kama.

JIGS Hindi, okay lang ako dito.

YUMI Huwag ka nang maarte. As if naman re-rapin kita no. Malaki naman
itong kama e. Hatiin na lang natin sa gitna.

JIGS Sure ka?

YUMI Hindi mo naman siguro ako mamanyakin no?

JIGS (Matatawa) Okay ka lang?

YUMI Kung gusto mo, gamitin na lang natin iyang kumot na divider.

JIGS Good idea.

Isasampay nila ang kumot mula sa kisame para mahati ang kama sa gitna.
Magsesettle down ang dalawa. Ilalabas ni Jigs ang libro niya: ³Puppy
Love and other Stories² ni F. Sionil Jose. Si Yumi naman ay
magpapatugtog ng Japanese Zen Music habang nagsa-zazen.

YUMI Do you mind?

JIGS No, go ahead. I¹m just reading.

Magsa-zazen si Yumi. Magbabasa si Jigs. Pareho silang di
maka-concentrate. Papatayin ni Yumi ang CD player niya.

YUMI I can¹t believe our friends.

JIGS Oo nga e.

YUMI Dapat ginagawa nila ?to sa mga bagong pasok sa barkada o kaya sa
bagong...ay oo nga pala. Bagong graduate ka. Congrats.

JIGS Thanks.

YUMI So what¹re your plans?

JIGS Kinukuha akong researcher sa ADB. Kinukuha rin ako ng BPI sa OTP
nila.

YUMI Wow naman. In demand.

JIGS Di naman masyado. Who the hell invented this tradition anyway?

YUMI (Matatawa) You won¹t believe it.

JIGS Ikaw?

YUMI Malay ko ba na mabibiktima rin ako nito balang-araw.

JIGS So why did you start it?

YUMI Wala ka pa sa tropa nun e. Freshman ka pa lang siguro noon. Wala
lang. Napagtripan lang namin si Ronald. E may crush siya kay Meg.
Noong unang beses magpunta rito ng barkada, sabi ko, magsimula kami ng
tradition. Ilo-lottery namin ang pangalan ng mga lalaki at ng mga
babae. Kung sino ang mabubunot, silang dalawa ang pagsasamahin sa
isang kwarto sa loob ng tatlong araw. And then, we¹ll all see what
happens. Pero dinaya namin noon yung kay Ronald at Meg. Puro Ronald at
Meg ang mga pangalan na nakalagay sa lottery.

JIGS (Tatawa) Ang sama ninyo!

YUMI Kaya nga nakarma na ako e.

JIGS So is our case, dinaya? O talagang lottery?

YUMI (Teasing) Ano sa dalawa ang gusto mo?

JIGS Feeling ko may nagtrip sa¹kin sa barkada e.

YUMI Excuse me po, dalawa tayong biktima dito. I don¹t see any reason
kung bakit tayong dalawa ang sasadyaing biktima this year, unless may
crush ka sa¹kin na di ko alam at alam nila (tatawa).

JIGS Baka ikaw (tatawa).

YUMI The success rate of this tradition is 100% so far.

JIGS I was here na the 2nd time. Si Chris at si Cia ang biktima.

YUMI And last year were Rod and Kay. They¹re getting married kailan?
Sa
June yata.

JIGS What do you expect? Ikukulong mo ang isang lalaki at isang babae
sa isang kwarto for three days, imposibleng walang mangyari doon!

YUMI That was exactly my point. (Ngingiti)

JIGS E kung may madisgrasya?

YUMI Ano¹ng disgrasya?

JIGS Alam mo na ?yun!

Hahawiin ni Yumi ang divider nilang kumot.

YUMI Ano? Sex? Pa¹no kung magsex sila? Nakakatawa ka naman. Di mo
masabi.

JIGS Ang alin?

YUMI Ang sex!

JIGS Hah!

YUMI Sige nga sabihin mo nga?

JIGS Para kang tanga. Tumigil ka nga.

YUMI Shet, Jigs. Graduate ka na totoy ka pa rin!

JIGS Excuse me?

YUMI Sabihin mo nga: ³Sex! Sex! Sex! Sex!²

JIGS Para kang bata, Yumi ha.

YUMI You used to call me ate Yumi when you were in third year.

JIGS Well, graduate na po ako, ate Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS Hmmm. I wonder if we¹re gonna last three days.

YUMI (Teasing) Bakit? Ayaw mo sa¹kin?

Di sasagot si Jigs.

YUMI We¹re gonna survive this one.

JIGS What makes you so sure?

YUMI No offense, Jigs. I honestly find you very attractive pero I¹ve
no
time for this. Alam mo naman siguro na kaka'

JIGS Same here.

YUMI Same here what? Na you find me attractive o you don¹t have time
for this? (Matatawa)

Di sasagot si Jigs. Tahimik. Io-on ulit ni Yumi ang CD player at
ipagpapatuloy ang zazen. Itatabi ni Jigs ang libro. Nawalan na siya ng
ganang magbasa. Pupunta siya sa ref. Bubuksan niya ito.

JIGS Hah! (Sarcastic) Perfect! Red Wine! How very conducive.

YUMI May chips ba diyan?

JIGS Sa awa ng Diyos, may tsibog naman.

Papatayin ni Yumi ang CD player. Tatayo siya at kukuha ng chips sa
ibabaw ng ref.

YUMI Since we¹re gonna be stuck naman with each other for three days,
might as well make the best out of it di ba? I-enjoy na lang natin.

JIGS What do you mean?

YUMI Get the wine, let¹s have a drink! 50 hours to go na lang and
we¹re
gonna be the first failure of this tradition.

JIGS Oo nga. (Kukunin ang wine. Maglalagay sa dalawang baso.) When
they
chose Cia and Chris, naiintindihan ko pa e. Lalo na sina Rod and Kay.
Kung baga, tinulungan lang natin silang umamin sa isa¹t isa. Pero
us...

YUMI Weird ng barkada natin no?

JIGS To our barkada and our weird traditions!

YUMI To us, the first failure of this tradition!

Magto-toast sila at iinom.

JIGS Sige, ate Yumi. Let¹s make our stay here more interesting...

YUMI What¹s with the ate?

JIGS Fine...

Bubuksan ni Yumi ang chips. Uupo sila pareho sa sahig para
magkwentuhan.

JIGS Let¹s play twenty questions.

YUMI Sige! Ano yon?

JIGS Each of us will have ten questions each. Tatanungin kita,
tatanungin mo ako, mga gusto nating malaman sa isa¹t isa. Alternate
tayo. Pero the thing here is, you can¹t ask the question that I
already asked.

YUMI That¹s pretty interesting.

JIGS At bawal magsinungaling.

YUMI Fair enough. Pero whatever is said inside this room remains in
the
room. Ok?

JIGS Of course. You wanna start?

YUMI No. I want to ask the last question. (Ngingiti at kikindatan si
Jigs)

JIGS Smart move. Game. First question: Ano ang greatest frustration
mo
sa buhay?

YUMI Nge. Ang korni naman ng tanong mo. Walang
ka-challenge-challenge.
Ask me something na mag-iisip naman ako.

JIGS Simula pa lang e.

YUMI Sige. Ano nga ba...?

JIGS Akala ko ba walang ka-challenge-challenge?

YUMI Wag kang maingay, nag-iisip ako...I¹m a frustrated ballet
dancer.

JIGS Talaga?

YUMI I took lessons when I was six pero umayaw ako. Wala kasi akong
disiplina e. Mas gusto kong makipaglaro sa mga kalaro ko. Pero I
really enjoy watching ballet dancers. When I see them dance parati
kong naiisip na sana, ako rin. There! Ang dali naman ng tanong mo.
Walang thrill.

JIGS Appetizer lang. Yari ka sa¹kin mamaya.

YUMI We¹ll see. Ako naman: Did you ever have doubts about your
sexuality? I mean, kahit minsan ba, naisip mo na bakla ka?

JIGS Never.

YUMI Bilis ng sagot a.

JIGS Coz I never entertained the idea.

YUMI Homophobe ka ba?

JIGS Alternate tayo sa tanungan, di ba?

YUMI So, not once? Kahit konti? Kahit what if lang?

JIGS I¹m straight, okay?

YUMI I¹m not asking if you¹re gay or not. I¹m asking kung...

JIGS Never nga.

YUMI We all thought na you were gay. Well at least nung first few
months mo sa tropa before you introduced your girlfriend to us.

JIGS What?! You thought I was gay?!

YUMI E pa¹no kasi, masyado kang mabait. Ang pogi-pogi mo, pero parang
allergic ka sa mga babae. Over ang pagiging gentleman mo. Too good to
be true. You have a good body, it seems that you work out pero iniisip
namin front mo lang yun. Kadalasan kasi front ng mga bakla ang
pagiging maganda ng katawan nila at pagiging sporty...

Tatawa lang si Jigs.

YUMI So we thought it¹s either that or you were planning to become a
priest.

JIGS What?!

YUMI Well, you were always this goody-goody person. Pumupunta ka sa
chapel. Nangungumpisal, nagsisimba...

JIGS The way you said it, parang equivalent ang dalawa a.

YUMI Of course not. I didn¹t mean that!

JIGS I take my faith seriously. That doesn¹t make me gay!

YUMI So you did want to become a priest...

JIGS Hindi rin. Actually, I always wanted to raise a family...and be
a
father.

Tahimik.

YUMI So you¹re not gay.

JIGS No.

YUMI You never...

JIGS Ilang beses ka ba ipinanganak? Kulit mo e. It¹s my turn.

YUMI Homophobe ka no?

JIGS Hindi kaya!

YUMI Whatever...

JIGS Ako na, daya mo naman e.

YUMI Okay, okay. Shoot me.

JIGS How do you see yourself five years from now?

YUMI You expect to win this game? Ang kokorni ng mga tanong mo e.

JIGS The object of this game is not to win.

YUMI E ano pa ba?

JIGS To get to know the other person.

YUMI Sure. Basta ako, I will win this game. Walang thrill ang isang
game kung walang nananalo.

JIGS Sagot.

YUMI May time limit ba ?to? (Tatawa) Wine pa nga.

JIGS Sabi nga nila: in vino veritas.

Magsasalin si Jigs ng wine.

YUMI Masarap ang wine, ha? Saan kaya nabili ito? (Iinom) To answer
your
question, either maging entrepreneur ako, magsisimula ako ng sarili
kong botique or bar, o kaya, magiging artista ako sa pelikula.

JIGS Not bad.

YUMI Pero mukhang malabo yung stint ko sa movies. Tough ang
competition
e. Saka mahina ang manager ko. Panay hosting at pictorials ang
nakukuhang raket para sa akin. Papalitan ko na nga e. Pag nakaipon
ako, baka magtayo na lang ako ng botique.

JIGS (Magbibiro) Ayaw mo mag-bold?

YUMI Yuck!

JIGS Lahat ng gustong mag-artista doon dumadaan.

YUMI May talent naman ako kahit papano a!

JIGS Lahat naman ng bold star may talent a! Sa dibdib! (Tatawa)

YUMI (Hahampasin ng unan si Jigs) Bastos ka talaga! Akala ko
goody-goody ka...Hindi ko papatulan ang pagbobold kahit ano¹ng
mangyari no! Kahit ganito ako, may respeto pa rin naman ako sa sarili
ko.

JIGS Ganito? Ano¹ng ganito?

Di sasagutin ni Yumi ang tanong.

YUMI These producers think all the people want is sex, sex, sex! Kaya
puro basura ang mga pelikula e. Wine pa nga!

JIGS (Magsasalin ng wine) Bakit naman botique?

YUMI Hoy madaya ka na ha? Hindi pa ako lasing. Ako na¹ng magtatanong.
Ang korni mo namang magtanong. Bigatan naman natin nang konti...Inom
ka muna.

Iinom si Jigs. Magsasalin siya ng bago.

YUMI Who was your first crush in the barkada?

Tahimik.

YUMI Haha! Bingo ka no? Bagal mo naman sumagot.

Iinumin ang wine. Magsasalin ng bago.

JIGS Lalaki o babae?

Tatawa sila pareho.

YUMI Dapat may time limit ito e.

Tahimik.

JIGS Hirap naman ng tanong mo.

YUMI Iyon nga ang maganda e. Para may thrill. As if naman
ibo-broadcast
ko sa barkada kung sino.

JIGS Wine pa?

YUMI Di mo pa sinasagot yung tanong ko, nagtatanong ka na!

Magsasalin ng wine si Jigs kay Yumi.

JIGS Yung crush ko kasi...siyempre, sino pa ba? E di yung
pinakamaganda
sa barkada.

YUMI Nge. Subjective yon no! Para sa¹kin ang pinakagwapo si Joel. Sa
babae, si Kay. Para kay Ronald, si Meg...

JIGS Yung literally na may dating'walang tanung-tanong. Yung kahit
sino¹ng tanungin mo sa tropa, objectively, siya ang isasagot.

YUMI Jigs, twenty questions ang game natin. Hindi guessing game.
C¹mon
man. Play your own game. Pa¹no na kung truth or dare to e di pahirapan
na. Dadalawa na nga lang tayo e.

JIGS Yung commercial model.

Matitigilan si Yumi.

YUMI Wine pa nga.

Magsasalin si Jigs. Mag-iisip si Yumi. Iinom. Biglang matatawa.

YUMI (Tumatawa pa rin) Talaga?

JIGS Sige, pagtawanan ba?

YUMI You can say it to my face, I won¹t bite. Bakit hirap na hirap
kang
sabihin kung sino? Takot kang ma-reject? Parang tanong lang e...Wine
pa nga!

JIGS Okay, 1 point ka na...

YUMI (Ngiti) Gee...thanks. Flattered naman ako. At kailan naman
nangyari ito?

JIGS Sorry, my turn to ask. (Ngingiti) Who is your crush in the
barkada...NOW?

YUMI E ginaya mo lang yung tanong ko e.

JIGS Hinde no. May qualifier ako. Ang sabi ko, NOW. Ang tanong mo,
first crush ko.

YUMI Korni pa rin. Alam mo, kung basketball ?to, tambak ka na.

JIGS Just answer the question.

YUMI Siyempre wala. I told you, I don¹t have time for these stuff.
Kakabreak ko lang di ba?

JIGS Korni mo namang sumagot.

YUMI E korni yung tanong e. Pero kung talagang-talagang kailangan
kong
sumagot...hmmm...teka...sino nga ba? Sino ba¹ng crush material sa
barkada? Wala akong maisip e. Ikaw na lang.

JIGS Yung seryoso naman.

YUMI Seryoso ako. Ayaw mo yata e. Sige, iba na lang...

JIGS E napipilitan ka lang e.

YUMI Uy! Pa¹no ba¹yan? MU na tayo? Crush mo ko, crush kita...yiheee
(Tatawa).

JIGS Dati pa ?yon no!

YUMI Ay? Di mo na ko crush? Bakit, na turn-off ka? Ano namang ginawa
ko? Tsk. Tsk.

JIGS Is that your question na?

YUMI Oy, hinde! Ito naman...di ba pwedeng mag-follow-up?

Iinom ng wine si Jigs.

YUMI Fine. Here¹s a little juicy question: Describe your first kiss.

JIGS That¹s not even a question.

YUMI Arte mo. O: How was your first kiss like?

Matatawa si Jigs.

JIGS Wet.

YUMI Yuck!

Magtatawanan sila.

JIGS Alam mo, aksidente yung first kiss ko. Close kasi kami nung isa
kong kaibigan. Pag naggu-goodbye ako sa kanya, parati ko siyang
kini-kiss sa noo. E one time, sa gym habang nagpapahinga, nakaupo siya
sa sahig. Tinatamad siyang tumayo. So bumaba ako nang konti para
halikan siya sa noo kasi pauwi na ako. E siya naman, para maabot ko,
medyo tumingala. E sakto, sa lips ko siya nahalikan. Pareho kaming
nagulat. Pero di pa kami naghiwalay agad. Weird nga ang feeling e.
Parang may glue. Ayaw na namin maghiwalay pareho...

Tawa pa rin si Yumi

YUMI Awww. Ang sweet naman. Parang sa pelikula. Si Krissy ba ?to?

JIGS Hindi. Hindi mo siya kilala.

YUMI So what happened? Nagkatuluyan kayo?

JIGS Nope.

YUMI Ha?

JIGS Ewan ko ba. Complicated kasi yung situation namin e. May
boyfriend
siya noon. Ako naman, takot pa sa isang relationship. Pero at least,
na-discover namin na pareho pala kaming may gusto sa isa¹t isa. Pero
hanggang doon na lang.

YUMI What happened after?

JIGS We talked about it. We both decided na it wont work. Tapos,
bigla
na lang, hindi na kami nagkikita. And then, I met you guys, iba na ang
barkada ko.

YUMI Nakakatuwa naman.

JIGS Ikaw, pa¹no yung first kiss mo?

YUMI Ikaw ang nagturo sa akin ng game na ito di ba? Bakit ba lagi
mong
bini-break ang rules? Di mo na pwedeng tanungin ?yan!

JIGS Tine-testing ko lang kung lasing ka na. (Iinom ng wine) Okay,
naka-warm-up na ako: What was the naughtiest thing you ever did?

YUMI ?Yan ang mga tanong! Ano ba¹ng ibig mong sabihin ng naughty?

JIGS Bahala kang mag-define.

YUMI Hmmm...marami e...(matatawa) baka maeskandalo ka.

JIGS Kanina ayaw mo ng korni. Ngayong medyo exciting naman...

YUMI Eto na...I had two boyfriends at the same time.

JIGS (Nagulat) Hala.

YUMI I was with Joel and Zach at the same time.

JIGS Yikes. Alam ba ni Joel?

YUMI Kaya nga kami naghiwalay nun e. Nahuli ako (matatawa).

JIGS Ano namang pumasok sa kukote mo¹t ginawa mo ?yon, aber?

YUMI Nag-eexperiment lang ako. E sa type ko sila pareho e. Ano¹ng
magagawa ko? Saka para may thrill. Alam mo ?yon? Yung patago kang
nakikipag-date sa isa para di mahuli. Everyday pa akong nakakalibre,
kasi, alternate sila! (Tatawa) Akala n¹yo kayo lang mga lalaki ang
pwedeng gumawa no¹n?

JIGS How can you love two guys at the same time?

YUMI Who said something about love? Walang kinalaman ang love dun. I
was...having fun!

JIGS Nainlove ka na ba, ever?

YUMI Nakakailang tanong ka na? It¹s my turn.

JIGS Don¹t you want to answer the question anyway?

YUMI My turn!

JIGS Kulang ka pa sa wine. (Tatawa)

Ubos na ang unang wine bottle. Kukuha si Jigs ng isa pa sa ref.

JIGS Ang bilis nating uminom a.

YUMI Are you still a virgin?

JIGS Whoa! Where did that come from?

YUMI That¹s my fourth question.

JIGS (Magsasalin ng wine sa mga baso). Ano sa tingin mo?

Ngingiti si Jigs. Tititigan lang siya ni Yumi.

YUMI Don¹t tell me, wala pang nangyayari sa inyo ni Krissy hanggang
ngayon? Ilang taon na ba kayo?

JIGS Mag-tu-two years na sana next week.

YUMI So virgin ka pa? I don¹t believe it!

JIGS Mukha ba akong tarantado?

YUMI Mukha kang nagpapaiyak ng babae e.

JIGS Insulto ba ?yon?

YUMI Compliment ?yon, tanga.

JIGS Ah, okay. Thanks.

YUMI Pero, you mean, you never felt the urge to do it?

JIGS Alin? Sex?

YUMI Wow! Nasabi rin niya!

JIGS Of course I always feel it. Natural lang ?yon sa tao no? Nasa
iyo
na lang ?yan kung ano¹ng gagawin mo sa urge na ?yon.

YUMI E natural naman pala e. Bakit mo pinipigilan? I mean, pag naiihi
ka, iihi ka. Pag nagugutom ka, kakain ka. Pareho lang ?yon, di ba?

JIGS Pag naiihi ka, iihi ka dahil kailangan mong umihi. At hindi ka
iihi kahit saan. Pupunta ka sa banyo. Pag nagugutom ka, kakain ka
dahil kailangan. At hindi mo kinakain ang lahat ng pagkain na ihain sa
iyo. Pag di ka gutom, di ka kakain. Pag di mo gusto yung pagkain, di
mo gagalawin. Ang aso, pag may nakitang pagkain diyan, walang
tanung-tanong. Lalamon ?yan.

YUMI And sex is the same?

JIGS Lahat ng bagay, nilalagay sa lugar. May context. At least, yun
ang
nagpaiba sa atin sa aso.

YUMI Grabe ka namang magsalita. Para mo na ring sinabing lahat ng
nakikipagsex, aso ah!

JIGS Sinasabi ko lang, pag wala sa tamang konteksto, mali.

YUMI And what is that context?

JIGS Matanda na tayo. Ayokong maging preachy. Alam na natin ?yan.

Tahimik.

JIGS Kaso, kahit alam na natin, minsan di pa rin natin ginagawa.

Tahimik.

JIGS Masarap e. Sino ba¹ng ayaw nun?

Tahimik.

YUMI (Medyo nairita) So feeling mo santo ka at dapat kang
i-congratulate for being a virgin!

JIGS Sinasabi ko lang ang pinaniniwalaan ko. Ineexplain ko lang kung
bakit di ko ginagawa. May kanya-kanya tayong dahilan. Di ko pinipilit
kahit kanino ang mga paniniwala ko...No need to get so cross about it,
Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS It¹s not about being a virgin or not. It¹s about putting things
into their proper places.

YUMI I¹m not arguing with you.

JIGS Me neither. I¹m just answering your questions.

Matagal na katahimikan.

Ngingiti si Jigs. Titignan niya si Yumi na medyo nairita sa nakaraang
train of conversation nila. Magsasalin siya ng wine para kay Yumi.

JIGS Nasobrahan ka na yata sa wine e. (Tatawa) You still wanna go on
with the game? Nine pa lang tayo, eleven more to go. (Ngingiti)

YUMI Shoot me.

JIGS Who was your first lay?

YUMI (Hahampasin ng unan si Jigs) Ang bastos mo talaga! So inaassume
mo
na hindi na ako virgin?

JIGS E sabi mo kasi, walang thrill ang game pag walang nananalo e. So
I
guess I¹m winning. Saka wala naman akong inimply na ganun a! I¹m just
hitting two birds with one stone. Kasi kung virgin ka, e di simple
lang ang sagot: wala. Kung hindi naman, e di sino?

YUMI Ang daya mo.

JIGS Akala ko ba ayaw mo ng korning tanong.

YUMI You think I¹ll answer that after giving your sermon, Father
Jigs?

JIGS Ano ka ba? Inexplain ko lang yung personal reasons ko. Kung ano
man ang sa iyo, I¹ll respect them as well as I know you respect mine.
I¹m no saint. I¹m just trying to get to know you better. (Ngingiti)

YUMI How do you do that?

JIGS Alin?

YUMI I should have walked out on you kanina pa pero the way you say
things...parang bumabaliktad sa¹yo...makes you more...charming. Kung
ibang tao ka siguro, di na kita kakausapin.

JIGS You can¹t walk out. We¹re locked here for three days except for
meals.

YUMI So I¹m forced to like you para di masira ang vacation ko.
(Ngingiti)

JIGS You don¹t have to answer my question if you don¹t want.

YUMI I guess I¹ll be honest with you as you were honest with me...

Tahimik. Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI Di mo siya kilala. His name was Robert. He was my first
boyfriend.
It was Senior Prom Night. Alam mo na...typical senior prom story.
Everyone wants to lose it on prom night. Everyone thinks na pag prom
night, it was something special. We went out sa hall nang maaga. We
made out sa kotse niya. One thing led to the other. Tapos, yun...yun
na. We went back just in time for the awarding of the prom queen.
Guess what, I won pa. (Mahinang tawa)

JIGS What was it like?

YUMI Now that I look back, it isn¹t as special as I thought it was.
Pero it was different then. Back then, we were just led by our
passions. Alam mo yon? Andun ka na. Hormones raging wild. Passions and
Ideals are confused. Akala mo love, yun pala, curious ka lang pala.
Akala mo yun na yon. Akala mo you are in-love at lahat ng gawin mo
tama. Lahat ng gawin mo perfect. Everything was magical...well,
almost.

JIGS Almost...?

YUMI Sa next question mo na ?yan. Ako na.

JIGS (Pabiro) Wine pa? Kulang ka pa yata e.

YUMI Nilalasing mo ko no? May balak ka sa¹kin no? (Tatawa)

JIGS Is that your question? Sasagutin ko na. (Tatawa)

YUMI Engot. Hindi ?yon. Here¹s something na curious lang ako. Kasi
I¹ve
been hearing things...saka you¹ve hinted on it na rin kanina...Are you
still with Krissy?

JIGS Hindi na.

YUMI Since when?

JIGS Two, maybe three weeks ago?

YUMI Sino¹ng nakipag-break?

JIGS Pareho kami.

YUMI Why?

JIGS Maraming dahilan, actually. Naisip na lang namin na it won¹t
work.
Isa na do¹n, magkaiba kami ng gustong mangyari sa buhay. Magkaiba kami
ng mga pinaniniwalaan.

YUMI Like what?

JIGS Marami.

YUMI At ngayon mo lang nalaman iyon after two years with her?

JIGS People change, Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS Right before graduation, she asked me to move in with her.

YUMI Talaga?

JIGS Sabi niya, doon na naman din daw papunta ang relasyon namin.
Might
as well practice na raw for the real thing. Tutal, she¹s working na
naman, ako naman bagong graduate, we should try out na raw living
together if it¹ll work for us.

YUMI Natakot ka sa arrangement?

JIGS Hindi naman sa natakot. If you love someone, ano pa¹ng
ikakatakot
mo, di ba?

YUMI E bakit umayaw ka?

JIGS It¹s just that, it¹s not my thing.

YUMI Sabi na nga ba e, bakla ka no? Sinasayang mo ang opportunities!
(Matatawa)

JIGS Hindi ako oportunista. At lalong hindi ako bakla.

YUMI Fine.

JIGS Naisip ko lang na hindi pa pala ako handa sa mga ganitong bagay.
Wala pa sa isip ko ang gano¹n. Na-shock siguro ako sa reality na iyon
na nga ang next step sa relationship namin. I mean, two years of being
together and knowing each other, we¹re practically ready to get
married, if you know what I mean. Pero I realized, I¹m not ready for
any of these. Narealize ko how immature I am. Na iba yung ideals ko
two years ago sa ideals ko ngayon. I need to mature some more to get
into this thing'I mean, getting married. Diyos ko, ilang taon lang ba
ako...

YUMI Maturity has nothing to do with age.

JIGS But it has a lot to do with time.

Tahimik.

JIGS So I thought, bakit kailangan ng practice mode? Ibig sabihin,
pag
sumablay kami, split na kami? Live like a couple minus the commitment?
Pa¹no pag nawala na yung magic? Goodbye na?

Iinom ng wine si Jigs.

JIGS Kung kasal na, kasal na. Wala nang practice. I think that¹s the
real cowardice. Yung i-try muna natin kung it will work kasi takot
kayo na baka hindi maging successful ang outcome. Saan na napunta ang
excitement ng buhay? Kaya nga kayo in-love, para sabay kayong humarap
sa totoong buhay, sa hirap at ginahawa, di ba? (Matatawa) Hindi yung
pagpapraktisan muna ninyo para siguradong ginhawa lang.

Magkikibit-balikat lang si Jigs.

YUMI Are you always like that?

JIGS Like what?

YUMI So cerebral in everything. Kahit pagdating sa relationships.

JIGS Life is too precious para lang daanin sa trial and error.

Ngingiti si Jigs. Tahimik.

YUMI So, No hard feelings?

JIGS Friends pa rin kami. She still calls me up nga sa bahay e.

YUMI That¹s nice.

JIGS Kayo, bakit kayo nagbreak ni Carlo?

YUMI That¹s your sixth na ha?

JIGS Sure.

YUMI Alam mo, ironic para sa akin yung break-up namin ni Carlo. And
the
funny thing was, it was about...sex. Uy, sa atin lang ito ha?

JIGS Of course.

YUMI Kasi nga, I was looking for that magic nga di ba? I wanted to be
in a relationship na special naman. So of all the boyfriends I had, sa
kanya lang ako walang sexual relationship. As in nag-aabstain talaga
ako. Kasi parang naisip ko, para magkaroon naman ng meaning yung
³making love² di ba? Parang, dapat di mo parating ginagawa, at
ginagawa mo lang when you are sincere with yourself and with your
partner. So I was investing muna emotionally. And I was actually
starting to care about him. Yung, hindi ko na iniisip yung sarili ko.
Yung siya lang ang inaalala ko. Akala ko perfect na...

JIGS Ano¹ng nangyari?

YUMI Patunayan ko raw na mahal ko siya. Magbigay daw ako ng proof.
Pagbigyan ko raw siya. Sabi ko sa kanya, hindi pa ba sapat na proof
?yon? Na I¹m saving myself for that right moment, that special moment
between us? Alam mo¹ng ginawa? Nilayasan ako!

JIGS You deserve someone better.

YUMI Talaga!

YUMI Isipin mo, kung kelan naman I grew tired of meaningless sex,
when
I¹m looking for the real thing, saka naman mawawala. Ang ironic ng
buhay no?

JIGS That¹s the way we must learn.

YUMI Alam mo, kung tutuusin, never ko pang na-experience yung tunay
na
mag make-love. And I had to go all through those relationships para
lang ma-realize yun. At least, ngayon, alam ko na ang hinahanap ko.

Iinom ng wine.

YUMI Ikaw ba, importante sa¹yo na virgin ang mapapangasawa mo? How do
you see virginity ba?

JIGS Alam mo, di ko pa napag-isipan ?yan. Pero now that you¹ve
mentioned it...It doesn¹t matter kung virgin ang mapangasawa ko o
hindi. Of course I value virginity a lot. I treat it as the only real
gift I could give to my wife to be. Imaginin mo na lang di ba, kung
wife ko ang una ko. It¹s like the perfect wedding gift I could give to
her. Pero kung siya hindi na virgin, I wouldn¹t care. As long as mahal
ko siya. Kasi I don¹t expect her to give me the same gift. I don¹t do
something because I expect people to do the same to me. Ibigay niya sa
akin ang sarili niya nang buong-buo, sapat na sa akin ?yon. Masaya na
ako sa ganoon.

YUMI (Mapapangiti si Yumi.) You know, that¹s the nicest thing I ever
heard from a guy. That¹s why I always enjoy talking to you. You always
say the nicest things.

JIGS Wow. Salamat. E ikaw, is making love to you equal to love?

YUMI I always took sex and love as opposite ideas. I mean, after the
first time na...you know...sa Senior prom. Kasi afterwards, we broke
up na ni Robert. Tapos naisip ko, yun na ba yung love? Baka hindi love
yung naramdaman ko. Baka napagkamalan ko lang siyang love. I was just
after the pleasure of intimacy. And then I felt empty. So empty.
That¹s why I wanted to change. I wanted to believe in ³making love.²
And I¹m still looking for it. Yung magic. Yung feeling mo, tao ka
pala. I never felt that kahit isang beses. Men have penetrated my body
but never my soul. And I wanted that. I wanted someone to touch my
soul. To ³make love² to my soul through my body. Pero siguro, naging
numb na¹ko sa dami ng relasyong pinagdaanan ko. Hindi ko alam kung
mararanasan ko pa iyon. That¹s why I envy you.

Tahimik.

YUMI Sa tingin mo may pag-asa pa ako?

JIGS You still have your soul...(Ngingiti)

Tahimik.

YUMI With whom would you want to experience it?

JIGS Of course, sa asawa ko.

YUMI I mean, someone in particular. Take it as my seventh question.
So
give a name.

JIGS A name? Hindi ko alam. Basta kung sino ang magiging asawa ko.

Tahimik. Magkikibit-balikat si Yumi. Iinom ng wine.

JIGS Well, I always thought na it was Krissy. And then, it was just
gone. Of course I loved her. And I still do. Pero the magic was just
gone after we both found out na magkaiba kami ng mga prinsipyo sa
buhay.

Tahimik.

JIGS My turn?

YUMI Shoot me.

JIGS Tell me something...a secret. Yung wala kahit isang nakakaalam.

Matagal na katahimikan.

JIGS You trust me naman di ba?

YUMI Well, you¹ve earned it, alright.

JIGS Saka wala akong tinatago sa¹yo. Sinagot ko lahat ng tanong mo as
honestly as I could. (Ngingiti)

YUMI I uhm...

JIGS Yes...?

YUMI I need more wine.

Magsasalin si Jigs ng wine.

JIGS Take your time. We have less than fifty hours to go.

Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI I¹ll tell you something no one in the world knows except one
other
person. And that person probably forgot all about me already.

JIGS (Pabiro) What? You had sex with a stranger?

YUMI Ano ka ba?

JIGS Biro lang. Seryoso na.

YUMI Promise ha? Hindi ito lalabas.

JIGS Promise.

YUMI If this goes out, I will hunt you kahit sa libingan mo.
Huhukayin
kita at papatayin kita ulit.

JIGS Mamatay man ako ngayon.

YUMI Okay...(Pause) I...I was with Joel then... (Magiging mas seryoso
ang tono niya) ...and Zach. I wasn¹t really with Zach, I was just
going out with him pag wala si Joel, alam mo na...making out and
stuff...Well, anyway, I was kinda serious din naman with Joel that
time. Joel and I were...you know...doing it. And...

JIGS And...?

YUMI Uhm...I...uhm...I got pregnant.

JIGS What?

Tahimik. Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI I uhm...****. Hindi ko naman talaga ginusto e. Uhm...Two months
akong delayed...then I took that test. I found out na buntis nga
ako...and Joel found out about Zach (maluha-luha na) and I didn¹t know
what to say, you know? Maniniwala ba naman sa akin si Joel na naaliw
lang ako kay Zach? Na I didn¹t really love him? Na wala lang iyon? And
so he broke up with me and...I..uhm...I was afraid and uhm...
(Magsisimula siyang magbreak-down)

JIGS It¹s okay...

YUMI I uhm...hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko, Joel left me. I wanted
to
tell him about the baby to make him come back but I don¹t think he¹d
believe me after the thing with Zach...and...my parents are gonna kill
me if...****. (iiyak)

JIGS (lalapit kay Yumi para i-console ito) Ssshhh...you don¹t have to
tell me this if it upsets you...

YUMI And so I went to a clinic...(hahagulgol) I didn¹t mean to, Jigs.
I
wasn¹t myself then. And I felt so afraid. So alone...

JIGS Tahan na. Ssshhh...

Iiyak lang si Yumi kay Jigs. Yayakapin ni Jigs si Yumi.

JIGS Alam ba ?to ni Joel?

YUMI How can I tell him? The only other person na nakakaalam ay yung
duktor sa clinic. God...(iiyak) Oh God...

JIGS It¹s alright...

Hihimasin ni Jigs ang likod ni Yumi. Patatahanin niya ito. Matagal
silang nakaganito lang.

Matagal na katahimikan.

YUMI Can you get me my yosi?

Tatayo si Jigs. Pupunta sa may side table sa tabi ng kama. Kukunin ang
Yosi ni Yumi. Magsisindi siya ng isa at iaabot kay Yumi.

YUMI Thanks...

Matagal na katahimikan.

YUMI If we were...if we were the last two people on earth, would you
consider doing it with me?

JIGS Doing what?

YUMI Alam mo na...

JIGS Alin? (Teasing ngingiti)

YUMI Gago mo. (Ngingiti)

JIGS Ngumiti rin.

YUMI So? Would you?

JIGS Alin nga? Di mo masabi no? Bakit di mo masabi? (Pagtatawanan si
Yumi) Sabihin mo nga: Sex! Sex! Sex! Sex!

YUMI Shut up nga!

JIGS That¹s your eight na, ha?

YUMI I lost count. Answer it.

JIGS Why not?

Hihithit ng yosi si Yumi. Tahimik. Sasandal si Yumi sa balikat ni
Jigs.

JIGS If you could be something else, what would you be?

YUMI I dunno...maybe a violin...yeah. Violin siguro.

JIGS Bakit?

YUMI I always saw the relationship of a violin and its player as very
intimate. Pag tumutugtog ang violinist, ang nakikita ko at naririnig
ko, he strokes the soul of the instrument and the instrument
penetrates the soul of the player. Para silang nagmi-make love. Di ba?
Very sexy, very intimate, very sublime. Di ba? Pareho silang sincere
sa isa¹t isa. Dahil kung hindi sila sincere, walang music na mabubuo.
The violin surrenders her body to her player, her whole body and her
whole soul, in full trust and sincerity. Di ba, compared to the sound
of the other instruments, ang tunog ng violin parang isang naked
woman? A naked woman in surrender? I want to be a violin. I want to be
stroked in the soul. I want to make sincere music. I want to
experience the sound of love.

Tahimik.

JIGS Lalim nun ah. (Ngingiti)

YUMI Pa¹no mo malalamang in-love ka na?

JIGS Paano? I don¹t think there¹s a formula to that. Basta malalaman
mo
na lang. I mean, ilang beses lang ba nangyari sa akin ?yon? I¹d like
to believe na yun na nga ?yon...yung kay Krissy...

YUMI Kwento mo nga...paano mo narealize dati na mahal mo nga si
Krissy?

JIGS Alam mo nakakatawa...korni actually. Babalik na naman ako sa
pagiging korni nito e. Di ba ayaw mo sa korni.

YUMI Sige na. Hindi na kita aasarin.

JIGS I heard bells.

YUMI Ano?

JIGS Seryoso. Bigla na lang, habang nag-uusap kami, may narinig na
lang
akong bells, tapos music. Ewan ko kung iniimagine ko lang ?yon pero
yun ang nangyari. Nakakatawa nga e. Parang kanta ng Beatles.

YUMI Seryoso ka ba?

JIGS O baka naman nagkataon noong oras na yon, may nagkakantahan sa
kung saan sa school. Basta may narinig akong bells. Tapos napangiti
ako. Pagtingin ko sa mata niya, iba na ang nakikita ko. Hindi ko na
siya nakita as kabarkada lang. Biglang parang may magic. Hindi ko
ma-explain. Baduy pero ganun. Tapos I just seized the moment. Umamin
ako. A week later, kami na.

YUMI Korni nga. (Matatawa)

JIGS Korni talagang pakinggan. Pero pag nandun ka na. Pag naranasan
mo
na, feeling mo, hindi na korni.

Ngingiti si Yumi. Tahimik.

YUMI Alam mo, may times na parang tunog violin ang boses mo. O lasing
lang ako?

Tahimik.

JIGS I¹m into my last question.

Iaangat ni Yumi ang ulo niya.

YUMI Shoot me. Better make it good.

JIGS If you were again to be the next victim of this tradition, if
you
were to be locked up in this room again...who would you want the next
guy to be?

YUMI (Mag-iisip) I want someone whom I could talk to... Yung
makukwentuhan ko ng mga sikreto ko. Yung may sense makipag-usap. Yung
may laman. The violin player who¹d stroke my strings...not even. Yung
mapapatunog niya ang strings ko without even touching them. (Tahimik)
Lumuluwag na ang dila ko...kung anu-ano na ang nasasabi ko. (Ngingiti)

Tititigan lang ni Jigs si Yumi. Tahimik.

YUMI Siyempre yung masarap kausap.

Tahimik. Hindi makatingin si Yumi.

YUMI Yung kahit habambuhay wala kaming gawin kundi mag-usap... I
think
it¹s better than making love.

Mapapatingin si Yumi kay Jigs.

YUMI Gosh I want to kiss you so badly.

Matitigilan siya.

YUMI I can¹t believe I just said that.

Tahimik. Titignan niya ulit si Jigs.

YUMI Don¹t you want to kiss me?

Pause. Titignan siya ni Jigs sa mata.

JIGS Is that your last question? (Ngingiti si Jigs)

YUMI Yes.

DILIM.